Milani Lipsticks

Hello guys. So today I thought I would share with you, one of my favorite brands of lipstick. A while back I purchased a Milani lipstick from Wal-Greens because I was in need of a red lipstick. I went home, put it on, and instantly fell in love. After that I have slowly built up a small collection of different shades from this brand and I would say I use at least one of the shades everyday. 

Currently, I have bought about 10 different shades and I love them all. My favorite thing about them is their smell. I don't know what it is, but they all smell amazing. It's not the usual lipstick smell that some of the Revlon or L'Oreal has and it's amazing. They all apply very well and have great pigment. It lasts very long and I usually use them either by itself or with a little bit of chapstick underneath. I will say that the matte ones do dry up a bit more than the other ones, but that is what matte lipsticks tend to do. 

If you are interested in the lipsticks you can check out all of them here. Click on each color and I think I have linked the website for them. Once in the website you can click on each color and it shows you the name and number of the shade. 

Uptown Mauve: 20

Matte Fearless: 70

Sangria: 21

Matte Naked: 61

2 of the Matte Beauty: 69

Pretty Natural: 43

Fruit Punch: 11

Best Red: 07

Black Cherry: 24

I currently use the Matte Beauty, Matte Naked, and Pretty Natural since it's summer. Once it gets towards fall and winter time, I will use Sangria, Matte Fearless, Best Red, and Black Cherry more. I also like to use the Fruit Punch and Uptown Mauve more during the spring time. 

If you get any of the Milani lipsticks or already have them let me know what your thoughts are on them. Do you have any shades that I don't? Any recommendations? Also if there's other brands that you prefer more let me know and I would love to try them. You can never have too many lipsticks! 

Chanel

Hello, hello, hello. So today I thought I would share and compare a product that I purchased a while back.

The product I want to talk about is a perfume by Chanel, Eau Fraiche Eau De Toilette: I usually use my Versace Bright Crystal and I love that perfume like no other, but whilst looking through my email, I found a mail from Sephora saying that there was a 3x points on the perfumes, so what does a normal sane person do? They buy more perfumes, of course. Now I've known about this perfume for a very long time. I had a cousin who had a some of the Chanel perfumes and I remember I loved the green one. I went to Sephora, tried it on, fell in love, and purchased it. It costs $100 for a 3.4oz from Sephora without tax. Now I have been using this for most days since I got it. I love it, but I want to compare it to the Versace one that I had.

They both smell amazing in my opinion. The Versace one is very feminine and it smells more of flowers but like a sexy flower. The Chanel one is much more sexy and mature. I will say that I like the scent of the Versace a bit more, but the Chanel lasts much longer. I usually do about 2 sprits and the Versace one lasts about 4-ish hours and then it becomes vague, like you can't really tell if it's there, but at the same time you get a hint of it somewhere. Whereas the Chanel one lasts about 6-ish hours and then it starts to become vague. I would honestly recommend both, but I would say the Chanel is better in terms of longevity, but it all depends on what you prefer.

I purchased the Chanel perfume back in February and I literally use it everyday, 2 sprits every morning. Right now I have about 4/5 of the bottle left, which is crazy to me. I don't really remember when I bought the Versace one, so I can't compare it to that, but I am still surprised how much of the bottle I still have.

Now would I purchase this product again in the future? I will 100%. BUT I don't think I'll be doing it anytime soon. Not just because it still has a lot left, but because I feel like the scent is a little too mature for me. I might think about repurchasing it in like 5 years when I'm a little older and can pull off the sexy scent, hopefully. I am currently thinking about either repurchasing the Versace one, or finding another scent that is a little more girly and something that smells more like a flower. 

If you guys want to get this perfume or are just interested to see what this perfume looks and smells like, here's the link to the Sephora website, here. If you guys are interested in the Versace perfume, you can click on the link here. Also, if you guys have any perfumes that you love and would recommend, comment it down below and I would love to check it out.

Thank you so much for reading and hopefully I'll get to go hunting for some new perfumes! 

Major Crisis

Recently I feel like I'm stuck. I feel like I don't want to be where I am. I want my life to be different. I wish I could be different. 

I am a 19 year old, about to go to her 3rd year of college and has NO idea what she wants in her life, but it's definitely not where she's headed now. 

I am stuck with the responsibility of taking care of my family. I am stuck trying to keep up our family reputation/honor/status. I am stuck with my major. 

My issue, for many, is not a big deal. I want to be a stay home mom in the future. But before all of that happens, I obviously need to go and get a good job. And what's a good job without a degree. I don't see myself working in an office, I don't see myself as a doctor, engineer, or anything for that matter. I just see myself as a mother. And I feel like I now live in an era where that is what women shouldn't be. They should be independent, hard-working, self made, and all that other amazing things that I'M NOT. 

Because I don't have a clue what I am interested in learning, I have been told to go into maths, because math is in everything. It's been a year since I decided that and I feel like that was the worst year of school I've ever had. I try so hard to do good, but all I seem to do is fail. I feel like I'm going nowhere with math. And when I try to find something else I can be passionate about, I'm stopped, told to reverse, and go back to what I've been told to do. 

Doing math makes me slowly lose myself. For the past year now, I have started getting anxieties. I get panic attacks, I lose my breath, and I just feel like I'm drowning. All I can think about is failing. Failing myself, my parents, my family, our reputation, our everything.

America is the land of opportunity. That's why my family moved here. So they can leave their world behind and start a better one for their family. I understand that. But I don't know if it;s the right place for me. 

I would rather work all day and all night than go to school. It's like my own personal jail. I can't stop thinking about it. I am forced to think, breathe, and live math and I just cant. But I don't know if it's just math. 

I also have a fear of failing. Disappointing others. My family especially. And I know they want the best for me, but sometimes it's just they are purposely making it harder for me. They have rejected me so many times and chose the "better" option. And I know it's suppose to be better, but it doesn't seem like it. 

All I want in life is to get married, have kids, and take care of my family and parents. 

And because of this one decision, I feel like a complete failure. I'm not driven, I can't do anything right. I am being torn apart one by one. I just feel like leaving it all behind. Going somewhere else and forgetting all my problems. It scares me, but I just want the pain to go away. I don't want to end up doing something bad to myself. And it scares me to think that I might be close to doing it. 

Favorites

Hello Everybody!!!!

So recently my dad brought home some new shampoos and conditioner and a bunch of other stuff. He got a lot of L'Oreal stuff. I think it might be new because I have never seen it before. I'm not usually the one to buy shampoos and conditioners. I let my mom do all that. 

But this time my dad got it and it was different. I am not all sure about how the shampoo is for my hair because I have not tried that all by itself yet. I have been using the shampoo and the balm together. 

The balm comes in a tub-like container and you use it like conditioner and leave it in for about 3-5 minutes. It claims that it will fix up to a years worth of damage. Now, I don't know about that.

My hair is super dry, especially since it's winter and it gets really damaged. I also have this thing where I find like a bunch of little fuzz in my hair because of how dry and frizzy my hair gets. I then end up not brushing my hair because it gets super tangled. I hated letting it down, hated having up in a bun or a pony tail, and I hated having it braided. Literally, I could not deal with my hair at all. I just wanted to chop it off. So I thought I would try it out. No harm in that.
At first I didn't see much of a change.And after a while I really noticed a big difference. 

Now I am not a professional on hair and don't know what is right and wrong for your hair and what feels good and what doesn't. But this balm is, personally, doing so much for me. 

My hair feels like how it does after I go and get treatment done at a hair salon.

Usually after I put in a different conditioner and rinse it off, I feel like the conditioner comes off my hair like it did nothing. But this product, I can feel it instantly help my hair. Then as I brush it after drying it, I notice that my hair is super soft. Then throughout the day I can tell that my hair feels more hydrated and healthier. 

My hair feels, honestly, amazing. I love it. I am so happy my dad got this balm thing. I have never been so happy with a hair product before in my life. It has done miracles. 

I have been using it like 2-3 times a week when I shower, but I as I continue using it, I feel like I don't need to. Like my hair still feels good after using the shampoo. I think I might try and see how it feels when I use it like once or twice a week. If that still works, I want to stick to that, because it really has done so much already, I don't feel like I need to continue using it so much. 

But yeah. I hope that you guys enjoyed reading this post. I don't usually have favorites, but this product is so amazing I HAD to share it with someone. Let me know if you have tried this product before and how it worked out for you. Let me know if you do buy and how you like it.
It's called the Advanced Haircare Total Repair 5 Damage Erasing Balm and Advanced Haircare Total Repair 5 Restoring Shampoo. We also have the conditioner, but I haven't used it yet. If you want that one as well, it is Advanced Haircare Total Repair 5 Restoring Conditioner.
Links:
Shampoo: http://www.lorealparisusa.com/en/Products/Hair/Hair-Care/Shampoo-Conditioner/Advanced-Haircare-Total-Repair-5-Restoring-Shampoo.aspx?shade=Total-Repair-5-Restoring-Shampoo-126-oz - $4.99
Conditioner: http://www.lorealparisusa.com/en/Products/Hair/Hair-Care/Shampoo-Conditioner/Advanced-Haircare-Total-Repair-5-Restoring-Conditioner.aspx?shade=Total-Repair-5-Restoring-Conditioner-126-oz - $4.99
Balm: http://www.lorealparisusa.com/en/Products/Hair/Hair-Care/Treatments/Advanced-Haircare-Total-Repair-5-Damage-Erasing-Balm-85oz.aspx - $6.99

Spring Fashion

Hey guys!! 

So I realized that spring break is coming up soon! A lot of people tend to go out traveling to warmer places or something fun. So I thought I might add a couple of outfits or clothing that I liked and write a blog about it. 

I know that some people live or are traveling to warmer places and some wont be, so I'm going to just write about different things you can wear for different weather. Where I live, we still need at least a light jacket, but I thought I would find some stuff that just reminds me of spring. 

This first one is super laid back. I love cropped tops. I think they're like a super cheeky thing. Especially with the loose ones, I think they look cute without looking like you're showing too much skin. I love her blue theme with her flats. And having your jeans or pants rolled up is, personally, like saying that it's getting warmer and super cute. 

So this is for those girls who live in colder places, but still want something springy. I love wearing cute clothes, but sometimes I get mad that I can't show it off during colder times because I am wrapped up in thick jackets. So for the spring time, I think it's super cute to have a fun colored jacket like this. I have one that is blue from Michael Kors and I think it's just perfect to add a bit of fun when you can show you cute outfit.

I think this outfit would be really nice to wear on like a casual date. The high-waisted skirt is quite feminine, but you can keep it super simple and casual with the top and sandals. I love the matching purse and the sunglasses that go with it too. Just imagine this with a sunset. 

This one is for obviously the places where it's warmer. I really loveeee high waisted everything right now and I thought this swim wear looks absolutely gorgeous. I love the color for the bottoms and the to is so different and I just love that it's stripes so that's really cute. I also love how she has it paired with sunglasses and big floppy hat. Just love it! 

 This last one is so casual, I love it. I think it would be really nice to wear on like a laid back day, going shopping or something. You can wear just the dress if it gets warm or layer it with the scarf and the cardigan. I also really love floppy hats and round sunglasses, I don't know if you can tell. I think that her shoes are just bring her outfit together. I just loved the color of this outfit. The pastel is so simple and cute for the spring times. 

So there are some of the outfits I thought would be really cute to try out this spring. I am currently loving high-waisted, round glasses, floppy hats and pastel things, so I kind of stuck with that theme. Let me know which ones you liked. If you want to see more outfits that I like you can follow me on Pinterest. I literally have a fashion board for each season and a bunch of other ones as well. Check it out! 

Am I Alone?

Hey guys!!

So recently I have been feeling super bleh about how my life is. I literally don't know what I am doing anymore. I feel like I am always waiting for the day to end. I want to go out and do things, but as I have said before I don't get to hang out with a lot of my old friends and I don't really have any new ones. 

This sounds stupid saying out loud, but I feel like I am going to go crazy if I don't say it somewhere. I mean, I have told my brother this and a couple of my old friends, but I don't know why I still feel like I need to tell someone else, but I do. 

I am in a part of my life where I should be making big decisions about my future and making sure I do everything right so I do have a future. I have to go to school and do homework and pass classes and everything.

But I wish I could just stop. I want to scream my head off because everything is getting to be too much. I hate every second I am in school. I dread doing homework everything night. And recently, for some reason, I keep forgetting to do my homework. This usually NEVER happens. I used to be that person who no matter what, gets her homework done, because that was the easiest part of the class. I never really needed to write down what I needed to do, I usually just knew. But this semester, I have forgotten to do 5 homework so far. 

I feel like school is taking a huge part of me away from me. I use to be able to handle this. I used to tell myself only 4 years of college and I can be done, but now just 4 months of college scares me. I feel like I can't get myself to go through. 

On top of that, all my family friends keeps asking me about school and usually I would tell them that everything is good, but now I have to think twice about my answer and keep worrying about them asking me that because I am sick and tired of lying. 

I really wish I could just tell my parents that I don't want to go to school anymore. I want to start working. Even if its something little I just want to start working and stop wasting their money on sending me to school. 

Last Friday, I was walking through my school halls, where they had offices for different things like managing money or helping out the community. I was fine, just going from my class to the bathroom and back. And then I started thinking about if the counselors office were there or not. Then I kid you not, I wanted to cry. I wanted to walk into the counselors office and just bawl my eyes out. I am seriously scared about my life right now. Nothing is going right anymore. 

This is the first time in my life where school has effected my life this much. It gives me anxiety and this pressure to stay perfect, but I can't anymore. I am breaking... and I don't really know what to do and how to handle this.
I, sometimes, wish something horrible would happen to me, so I wouldn't have to go to school anymore. I know it's not the right this or a good thing, but I would sit and imagine me getting a concussion or something random and minor where I wouldn't have to deal with school. 

I am sorry if this was too much to put up. I don't know what to do anymore and how to stop feeling this way. I was hoping some of you guys might have some advice on what to do. Let me know. Thanks!

School Stress

Since it is February, my classes have start up again. I am back in school and will be there for the next 4 months. 

School literally just started and I CANNOT wait until it's over. whyyyy!!!

I have recently been going through this phase where I don't want to go to school anymore. I mean I never really liked school to begin with, but recently I have been really doubting myself. Like REALLY!!

Now I don't know if this is coming from me hating my major (math), me going through a phase in my life (all my friends are going through this as well), or if I am just not meant for the school life. 

Now you might be sitting there reading this and thinking, YOU'RE OVER REACTING! But I assure you, I am not. 

It might be a college student issue. Starting to live in the real world and maybe the stress is getting to me. 

I also hate the thought of wasting my parents money. They are working hard and getting me into college and I'm not even sure about any of this. They want me to go to college and get a degree, but for what? Something I don't even like. I really appreciate everything they are doing for me, but sometimes I want to just stop and tell the how I really feel. 

I've got super strict asian parents, so life is even harder.

Now I am going to tell you something weird. I don't mind the thought of working hard. Like hard labor. Like 14 hour shifts kind of hard labor. The thought of that sounds better than going to school. I am the type of person (I may be the only person) who hates just sitting there. Unless it's something I like or watching movies or something I ACTUALLY enjoy with all my heart, I can't stand just sitting in one spot. Even when I do enjoy something so much, sitting there just gets so.... boring after a period of time.  

That's the same with school. You go to a class and just sit there... learning. 

Then I think about my future after getting a job and I think about some really boring jobs where I sit in a cubicle for hours and hours, just sitting there, working on a computer. The sound of that is just horrid. I would rather be working hard and doing something, walking around, just anything so I don't have to just sit there. 

Now you might think I'm nuts at this point, but I feel like I have a valid reason to be myself. 

Some people enjoy going to school and learning new things and I ENVY those people. I wish I was the type of person who wanted to learn and stuff. But I'm not. 

I feel like if I started working now, I could start earning money and everything. I feel like that would be better than me going to college and not really liking what I am doing. I'm not even good at school. I don't know. 

Let me know if any of you guys are dealing with this or have dealt with it. 

Any advice? (any would help)